1st Edition

An Autoethnography of Queer Invisibility On Shame, Passing, and Identity Suicide

By David Purnell Copyright 2025
190 Pages
by Routledge

190 Pages
by Routledge

190 Pages
by Routledge

This book recounts a personal journey of self-acceptance, focusing on the author's creation and reliance of a persona (Paul D. Drevlin) as a defense mechanism against societal and familial pressures. Beginning with a childhood marked by traumatic events, the author begins his desire of invisibility, later adopting the persona of Drevlin to navigate societal expectations and challenges,... Read more

Author’s Note                                                                                      

Overview                                                                                 

Section I – Disappearing and Hiding

            Chapter 1-The Urge to Disappear

            Chapter 2-Hiding Behind My Persona

Section II – Developing Drevlin

            Chapter 3- Becoming Drevlin

            Chapter 4-Back to Smalltown America

            Chapter 5-My Awakening

Section III – Running Away

            Chapter 6-Uncle Sam Wants You

            Chapter 7- To All the Men I Have Been Before

Section IV – Trying to Find Myself

            Chapter 8- Becoming the Proud Queer: Attempt One

            Chapter 9- Becoming the Proud Queer: Attempt Two

            Chapter 10- Back to Smalltown America, Again!

            Chapter 11- Becoming the Proud Queer: Attempt Three

Section V – Living My Life

            Chapter 12- Living My Best Life

            Chapter 13- Returning to Academe

            Chapter 14- Living In Washington

            Chapter 15-Drevlin is a Part of Me

Epilogue

End Notes

References

Biography

David F. Purnell is a visiting professor at Western Washington University in Bellingham, WA, where he teaches a specialty class on Communicating Identity and Difference. His publications are mostly related to the focus of this book—issues of identity and shame. David lives in Tacoma, WA, and enjoys exploring the beauty of the Pacific Northwest through his daily walking with and in the various landscapes offered to him.