1st Edition
Madness or Knowing the Unbearable Truth A Psychoanalytic Journey in Search of Sanity
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
INTRODUCTION
NOTES TO READER
PART I CREATING A SAFE PLACE INSIDE
Chapter One IN THE BEGINING – A STONE
Chapter Two SEPARATING INSIDE FROM OUTSIDE
Chapter Three TAKE OUT THE BADNESS – I WANT TO BE GOOD
Chapter Four FROM DEAD ENDS TO DID
Chapter Five ALTERNATIVE WAYS TO COMMUNICATE – WRITING
Chapter Six HOW CAN I KNOW THAT WE ARE REAL?
Chapter Seven THE STORY OF INCEST :KEEPING IT ALL IN THE FAMILY
Chapter Eight THE DANGER OF THE GOOD OBJECT
Chapter Nine ON INCEST, BLINDNESS AND PARANOIA
Chapter Ten THE HOSPITAL DREAM
Chapter Eleven THE SILENCE IS NOT TO BE BATTLED – BUT UNDERSTOOD
Chapter Twelve THE DEATH OF DAD: LONELINESS
Chapter Thirteen ON PIMPS AND PROSTITUTES
Chapter Fourteen WHEN TRAUMA HAS NO WITNESS
PART II LIVING THE PAST IN THE PRESENT LIVING DEATH
Chapter Fifteen ENACTMENT INSTEAD OF MEMORY
Chapter Sixteen FROM HANGING DOLL TO DATH BY HANGING
Chapter Seventeen THE CULT DREAM
Chapter Eighteen ALICE IN HORRORLAND
Chapter Nineteen THE MYSTERIOUS GARDEN
PART III FROM INSIDE TO OUTSIDE CHOOSING LIFE
Chapter Twenty ENTER: THE MINISTER
Chapter Twenty-one FROM PREGNANCY TO BIRTH
EPILOGUE
BIBLIOGRAPHY
Biography
Tova Zaltz is a clinical psychologist and a psychoanalyst, member of the Tel Aviv Institute of Contemporary Psychoanalysis, with a private practice near Jerusalem, where she works with people of all ages. She has treated and supervised individuals, groups and staff in private and public institutions, including children with learning difficulties, high-risk families, as well as bereaved families. Tova has extensive experience in the development of psychoanalytic thinking within educational systems.
"This is a most striking account where different phases and happenings are recorded not in the mind but in bodily formations. For any therapist working with bizarre forms of psychosis this is an inspiring book."
--Neville Symington, author, Narcissism: A New Theory, The Making of a Psychotherapist, Becoming a Person through Psycho-Analysis and co-author of The Clinical Thinking of Wilfred Bion (Routledge)"This stunning book is destined to become a classic. The story of this patient’s journey is gripping, touching and overwhelming as it probes various depths of the most profound suffering in the face of ultimate human cruelty, the patient’s brilliantly creative - bordering on and including deranged – psychological strategies of survival, and the exquisite sensitivity of the therapist to unconscious processes along with deep caring and respect for her patient."
--Israel W. Charny, PhD., Author, Psychotherapy for a Democratic Mind: Treatment of Intimacy, Tragedy, Violence and Evil"What a wonderful book Tova Zaltz has written. A detailed portrayal of a twenty year journey in therapy engaging madness within and madness without. Profound engagement with psychic reality opened doors of violent abuse in childhood mirrored by the patient’s aggression turned against herself. This book is packed with rich psychological themes expressed in moment to moment interaction. One comes through, with Tova and her patient, challenges of working together and the need to grow."
--Michael Eigen, PhD, Author, Faith, Contact with the Depths, and The challenge of Being Human"This is a rare book - I am not aware of any other that provides a detailed and respectful clinical account of a twenty-six year psychoanalytic treatment of a woman with Dissociative Identity Disorder. This is written by a brave and significant newcomer to the field with lyrical and painful openness and rigour who has honed her understanding through the encounter and fulfils the wish of the patient to be remembered."
--Valerie Sinason, PhD, MACP, MInstPsychoanal, Founder Director Clinic for Dissociative Studies, 2016 ISSTD Lifetime Achievement Award
